You walked into the gas station bathroom stall You put the razor blade to your wrist Portals to hell appeared on the piss-stained walls And you let the shining metal slip You stared into the sterile abyss When the blood pooled into the toilet bowl And just as you began to ghost All you saw were all the colors of the rainbow Red, orange, yellow, blue, green, purple Never ending vertigo

Bonefish Bonefish A peacebone got found in the dinosaur wing Well, I’ve been jumping all over, but my views were slowly shrinking I was a jugular vein in a juggler’s girl I was supposedly leaking the most interesting colors While half of my fingers are dipped in the sand You progress in letters, but you’re used to cooking broccoli The other side of takeout is mildew on rice And an obsession with the past is like a dead fly And just a few things are related to the old times Then we did believe in magic and we did die It’s not my words that you should follow, it’s your insides You’re just an inside, adjust your insides, you’re just an inside I bet the monster was happy when we made him a maze ‘Cause he don’t understand intentions and he just looks at your face I bet the bubbles exploded to tickle the bath And all the birds are very curious, all the fish were at the surface With half of me waiting for myself to get calm I’m like a pelican at red tide I’m a corpse, I’m not a fisherman And a blowout does not mean I will have a good night And an obsession with the past is like a dead fly And just a few things are related to the old times Then we did believe in magic and we did die It’s not my words that you should follow, it’s your insides You’re just an inside, adjust your insides, you’re just an inside Screaming Well, I start in a hose, and I’ll end in a yard When I feel like I’m stealing I can’t keep myself from hearing god Only the taste of your cooking can make me bow on the ground It was the clouds that carved the mountains It was the mountains that made the kids scream Oh well, she bore all her parts but she never was found You think I’ll carve a path from New York And be an artist, but are you anything You can’t ask a baby to cry And an obsession with the past is like a dead fly And just a few things are related to the old times Then we did believe in magic and we did die It’s not my words that you should follow, it’s your insides You’re just an inside, adjust your insides, you’re just an inside Inside, inside, inside… Peacebone, peacebone, peacebone… Bonefish

Peter went hitchhiking today Got hit by a greyhound heading for the city What a shame What a god damn waste In only five days was his birthday Mirabelle wants some habanero moonshine She’ll do anything for just one taste What a shame What a god damn waste She was sodomized until she wasted away And I can see you there flicking your tongue out At the frostbitten snowflakes that cover this place And I can see the slowly moving devastation Turn to desperation on your face What a shame What a god damn waste That we are one in the same That you left and I stayed That reality is never returning again

Three red plaid button-downs are folded up neatly And you are sound asleep after you threw burnt coffee on me I’m face up in the bathroom now wondering what to do Should I put some aloe vera on or put a pillow over you? And everything we said came back today Everything that ever was came back today Three red plaid button-downs now sitting in the drawer And you are half asleep as you mumble words of scripture I’m upright in the rocking chair now listening to you Will the scar tissue fade away like the scriptures say it’ll do? And everything we said came back today Everything that ever was came back today Three red plaid button-downs now scattered on the floor Crumpled up with broken glass, dead roses and so much more Your eyes pierce through my blood red cheeks as you slam the drawers And I’m wondering if I even love you anymore But as sure as the sun awakens and passes in the west We will come back tomorrow and try our very best So, when you turn your back on me with my skin all red and bruised I’ll put some aloe vera on and look straight through you And everything we said came back today And everything that ever was or will be It came back today

Instrumental [Invisible Lyrics] The cold came early this year The cold has come today And my winter clothes have worn away The cold has come today Cor husks like bricks Hornet's nests built in the clouds so thick I can no longer see the moon But at least I have you, rabbit

When I look at you All I see is your nose bleeding red And when I look into your eyes All I see is a decapitated pumpkin head Over the delta we go Through the tundra and then nobody knows Ceiling stars and flying cars crashing above And swinging to and fro And you were swinging too You learned forgiveness for good When I look into the mirror All I see is my unkempt hair And when I look into the mirror All I see is Fozzie Bear Kermit, Oswald, Kipper, Tom, Jerry Patrick, Billy and Mandy All of my favorite cartoon souls Will surely outlive me And you my dear will die too A cardboard coffin cutout just for two

I can hear the rainclouds calling I can hear the forest in tune with the rain that’s falling And I can hear you rolling with the thunder too Oh, but thunder, don’t leave me Thunder, don’t leave me until the day I die

(Maize Stalk Drinking Blood) Lying in the hot sun today Watching the clouds run away Thought a little while about you And the sky was a petrifying blue And while the geese flew past For no reason at all I let the sky fall This is an empty country, I am the king And I should not be allowed to touch anything I picked myself up off the ground Shook the grass from my hair and I walked around Felt the warm sun in my eyes Strangers were passing by I shimmied up the black walnut tree I let the hard blue sky fall right through me And I saw the sad young cardinal trying to sing And I should not be allowed to touch anything (Waving at You) Listen, you can tell your lawyer that he can go to hell Cause I can take whatever you are offering up reasonably well And if four long years come to nothing, it’s alright But it’s your birthday, it’s your birthday tonight And I went to buy you something But I caught myself in time And nothing makes any sense anymore But everything rhymes Die hard, die kicking Old habit of mine Die hard, die kicking Old habit of mine Die hard, die hard, die kicking

Ceilings collapsing over my head, over oblivion When will all of the king’s men come to declare I’m dead? Ceilings are caving in over my head, over the sleeping dead When will you come out from the barracks and to my deathbed? ‘Cause when we lay here in this bed, your head against me head I can feel the blood from our wrists declaring the bitter end

Oh, Primbletrench be kind to me Take all the forbidden fruit from the elder tree And let it all go Turn the jagged ice to soft snow Oh, Primbletrench speak sweetly Let all your witnesses leave willingly And let them all go Cure the coroner’s cracking bones Oh, Primbletrench kill me silently Make all my thoughts turn to melody And let me ghost Turn my suffering heavenward And I will do the same for you

(Part 2) And now there is glue all over my bedroom floor I step in it every night As I make my way over to my window Hoping to see a phoenix in flight And I guess you could say that I was afraid That you would lose your sight But I will take the burden staring out at the sun And that will be alright Just before the sun takes away my eyes I’ll look to the western light And find your silhouette amongst the flowers To see that you’re still in the fight And when your parents scream for you to return Don’t you ever come back They don’t deserve a second glance They don’t deserve your love They don’t deserve your forgiveness They don’t deserve you anymore (Part 3) When I see you there with perfect legs and perfect arms I’ll know that you have flown so far away from your home From that place still reshaping every day But you have healed in the best of ways And you have won You sang your songs, your holy harmonies And you brought me down to my knees So, when you soar into the clouds You can breath in knowing nothing around Is wrong Nothing is wrong for you anymore

I am breaking All is breaking

Once I get done with the dishes Once I mow the lawn Once I let out the dogs Once I wring out all of these waterlogged clothes You will know what my fury is You will never see it coming You will know what my fury is Once I send those postcards of us on our trip away To everybody who knows us well Once I get back from that place That brings new life straight from hell You will know what my fury is You will never see it coming You will know what my fury is And you will know it until the day you fly away

We fell into the sinking dirt We rode the writhing waves Blades ripped into your shirt And into my grandmother’s grave Hand in hand We soared through tear gas clouds Over the tar pits No one but the devil was around Eyeballs in the carpet Hand in hand And when the home run record is finally beaten We will find the power of believing A letter came in the mail today It was addressed to Babe Ruth It told the end in glorious ways The all-knowing truth 587 ft. through the air The murder of crows will fly To a canyon of cracks, long and bare Where everything goes to die Hand in hand And when the home run record is finally beaten We will find the power of believing When we fall Hand in hand

Oh May, my darling, your hair is changing hues And the sky is changing to dark grey from blue When the wind whips the walls to dust And the dust clouds change the view I won’t be looking for anyone I won’t be looking for you Oh Chester, my love, your bones are turning rotten And you can’t leave the kitchen without something forgotten And when the wind strips the shelves clean And the floors all of their polish I can keep my dying wish safe I can keep it like a secret And then December came today And the lowly wind was all we heard We turned to snowmen in the front yard And that is what we both deserved That is what we both deserved

Open the attic door Someone is trying to get out Open the attic door Someone is dying to get out But you were in the basement You could no longer take it Open the garden gate Someone is trying to get in Open the garden gate Someone is trying to get in Come in and smell the flowers Chester, Kathleen and Deborah Let them all engulf you Let the rainbows come into view

This is the song I sing when I feel like shit And the nervous habits just won’t quit And all I can ever do is give up and scream Fuck!

Up on the wild eyrie today The elder eagle had his say On the way that the branches and leaves would sway About the stems and twigs inside my brain And the dogs around the local forest will play With the girls and boys who will feel okay They will feel alright at the end of the day Until the elder eagle has his say Has his say Up on the wild eyrie today The words at once all went away And the synapses could no longer stay So, they snapped in two and there they’d lay And through the entire month of May The elder eagle felt dismay For the child in straightjackets of grey From the words that at once all went away They went away

I thought I felt your shape, but I was wrong Really all I felt was falsely strong I held on tight and closed my eyes But it was dumb, I had no sense of your size It was dumb to hold so tight But last night On your birthday in that kitchen My grip was loose, my eyes were open I felt your shape and heard you breathing I felt the rise and the falling of your chest I felt your fall Your winter snow Your gusty blow Your lava flow I felt it all Your starry night Your lack of light But with limp arms I can feel most of you I hung around your neck independently And my loss was overwhelmed By this new depth I don’t think I ever felt But I don’t know The nights they’re cold And I remember warmth I could’ve sworn I wasn’t alone

Maybe soon it will all change But for now, it will stay the same These walls I want to feel something real I want to see you smile I want you to let me go I want to feel the fall I will sing these songs Until they mean nothing at all Like a child says I love you For you, the walls I want to leave this place Maybe come back another time I will retrace the paintings etched into my mind I will find the faith to forgive you all I will never forget these walls And I hope that they never forget me too

Over the flowing river Jordan You were always on my mind And the purple milkweed was growing Where peace was always hard to find But when I see a raincloud forming I open my window in perfect time Because when I am laying silent The sound it is so damn divine And you were there always on my mind

The bones of all you are They’ll twist and they’ll break apart And when your skin falls from your heart Your mind will soar into the sun And when you fly into the sun The elder eagle will fly in from above He’ll pick you up into his mouth And he will ease you around And in the back of my car I found my bleeding scars They did not show me the stars Just how inferior I am to you all

Woke up this morning, and I felt alright The rainclouds parted and let in some light I made some coffee, and I went downtown And I felt a love within me when I saw you around And a bullet to the chest and I don’t feel a thing A knife right to the heart and I don’t feel a thing Barbs around my feet and I don’t feel a thing I think this is the first time I’ve felt okay in my life So, let’s walk around you and I In this pretty little world of ours until we die Open up your arms to my warming mind And I will do my best to open mine Because my heart is cavernous, but I try To keep the dark out and the good inside And when the sun sets in our eyes I hope I will have no regrets in my time And your hand against my hand and I feel everything Your lips against my lips and I feel everything Your warmth against my brain and I feel everything I don’t think this is the last time I will feel good in my life